Dilemma!

OH NO!

Should I still do Mechanical Engineering? Or should I just drop off that silly idea altogether and do some business thingy like my brother keep suggesting? Sighs....

My main concern now is go WHICH UNIVERSITY!!! Monash University, Sunway Campus offers Bachelors in Mech Engineering for 4 years! But University of Nottingham, Semenyih Campus offer Masters in Mech Engineering for 4 years too! Worse of all, they both almost same cost. How How How! Should I just take Monash and study extra 1-2 years to get my masters? Or should i just do Nottingham and get my masters within 4 years? It's so tough. Both roads are tempting. I only fear I cannot take Mechanical Engineering, let alone masters in a shorter time. I really dunno la....Hate being so indecisive....

See Ant Whine! (CNY)

Can't wait to go bai lin at the 6 pax's houses!
Sadly the two ladies won't be available til friday...
AND FRIDAY IS LIKE OUR DAY TO GO PENANG OR GENTING OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT!!! XD
So how to bai lin liddat?
I WANT ANG PAO!!!

Ed's mum will probably give alots XD
And so does CC's mum, especially to chelly welly yelly jelly belly lolz!
Don't come my house! I won't let you in! MWAHAHA!!!

Happy cny to all! Wait, what are you doing here? GO TEMAN UR FAMILY! STOP READING THIS BLOG XD

Seven Hours

Is very long!
So have a safe trip to Hattyai!

And may ur ass stay oval and curved for prosperity and longevity!

u owe me angpao + souvenir :D

Before my results...

I said to myself, "if i get 3As I will buy myself those earphones..."

Now I got 3As, I should buy them!!!!

Okla after cny I will surely look for them!

Unless...a kind soul out there, which I'm still waiting for, feels like paying for me!

Then I will thank him/her with all my heart and even let him/her use it before I do! :D

Look up...

And you will see things in a different angle :)

P.S. : Still waiting for a kind soul to sponsor my earphones :D

Hmmm...

I've been overspending like shit lately, but not on myself. Lol! Yes, its on that few beloved people. But I feel like buying myself a pair of earphones, you know, sony earphones that goes inside your ears? I want that! My friend recommended me one, but it doesn't come with an adapter! If I buy adapter, I have to buy it as a set, which comes with a lousy earphone! So if I buy both, it might cost me roughly RM50! OUCH! And also, I feel like buying myself a 8GB thumbdrive. Its nice :D! Spent alot for them. Now when I want to spend on myself, I feel pain. I can afford it next month, but will I buy it? I don't know. Hmmm...

Sorry...

I want to blog
But I couldn't find the words to say.
Everything is scrambled in my mind.
But all relates to one thing.
And that's I wish she'll forgive me.
I don't even care anymore whether its my fault or not.
According to Maine, it is.
I dunno, dun reli wanna think about that.
Why such a small thing can lead to such big dramas?
Why?
Never mind don't answer that.
I don't want to know why.
I just want one thing.
And I think she knows what I want.
What I need.
Because she is my kar zhe.
Always has.
Always will be.

Sorry to you too Maine, and the rest of the Chan family.
I shouldn't have joined such a foolish act.
Especially you Maine.
After all these times you've taught me so much.
But I didn't put any of those to use.
Instead I've become someone I hate.
Someone
Who
Hurts
Her
How can I despise those college friends of her?
When I am as much as a jerk as them?
When I am just as insensitive as them?
I don't deserve her.
But she treasures me so much.
I promise I'll make it up to you.
I'll listen to every order you say.
I will not fight back against your commands.
If you say don't, I won't.
If you say stop, I mute.
I know my credibility is quite low.
I don't even trust that I can do it.

First thing's first,
I'll need to forgive myself.
And I'll need to let go of my hatred.
My self-centered thoughts.
My egoistic mindset.
Because I always think its unfair.
Always hurt by negative feedback.
When what I should do is,
If its true, accept and change.
If its not, forgive and forget.
That's what I should do,
not keep it inside my heart until rage is formed.

I'm going to change.
But can I change?
What if I got lost again?
What if my emotions took over me again?
What if, I cannot take it anymore?
And worse,
What if I repeat this mistake once more?
There's nothing I can confirm now.
But I'll certainly put some efforts into it.

Sorry.....

How...

to not emo?

Nobody knows

Trojan...

Today, I've suddenly came across a link entitled "Top 10 Viruses roaming around the internet". When I clicked it, I noticed that the various viruses are not all virus at all. Some of them are spywares and some of them are trojans. So I ask myself, what's the difference between a virus and a trojan? So I searched for the definitions using http://www.google.com/ :D!

So, what is a trojan? Here's a few definitions for it.

1. A program that appears desirable but actually contains something harmful; "the contents of a trojan can be a virus or a worm"; "when he downloaded the free game it turned out to be a trojan horse"

2. A native of ancient Troy.

3. Trojan was a British automobile manufacturer; the eponymous marque thereof was produced between 1914 and 1974.

Oh...that's cool...There's so many meanings for the word Trojan...but hmmm what's this?

4. Trojan is a brand name of condoms manufactured by the Church and Dwight. The various types of Trojan condoms account for "70.5 percent of condom sales in drugstores in the United States, giving the brand more than four times the market share of runner-up Durex. Trojan brand condoms claim to be "trusted for 90 years.

Oh my....sorry dad because the free game I've downloaded was actually a common condom :)

One day I shout...

HELLLLLOOOOO!!!! CAN ANYBODY HEAR ME?!!?!!?

and then i realised, nobody can listen to me...

Only then I know, at times like this I have nobody to talk to. Yeah, these times don't come very often at all, so I guess its ok...

Meanwhile, someone out there, can you hear me....anyone?

*shouts even more..*

Oh my...

Holy crap...coll gonna start adi...and i still have so much to do and study for...gone! But at the same time, can't wait to go back to coll. In coll I won't have so much time to think about things that make me emo lol! Say yes to no more love :D! Cuz you're worth it ;)

You don't see me - Keane

yeah its song lyrics...but i find it so meaningful so i paste it here...go listen :D!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Om907zo8x2w&feature=related
why i find it nice? see the lyrics also know adi la...lol...
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Like beautiful dolls
All made up and bright
Radiant people in splintering light
All moving at the speed of life
Reflected in each other's eyes
But you're moving so fast through this beautiful scene
You don't see me
You don't see me

Oh truly we are a fortunate few
Who turn on your axis, revolve around you
All spinning outwards from your sun
Passing your reflection on
In your hurry to grasp everything that you see
You don't see me
You don't see me
You don't see me
No, you don't see me

Such a beautiful view
I guess you've seen it all
But you, you see nothing at all
Such a beautiful view
Shining so bright
Shining so bright, so bright

All moving at the speed of life
Reflected in each other's eyes

But you're moving with such irresistible speed
You don't see me
You don't see me
You don't see me
No, you don't see me
No, you don't see me

Terima Kasih

Sama-sama

Alas, its a new year mate-ies

Ah, 2008 is gone. Holy crap I'm growing so quick I can barely remember what happened yesterday, I mean last year XD! Okla I remember lol.

2008 WAS a beautiful year lol. I still remember when the year just begun, college is easy like pie, new friends are friendly like flies(they always so close and intimate to you like mosquitoes XD), and of course, there is no emoness in me like Sharmaine and spice(she will cry if too much spicy stuff lol XD).

So then, you, the lifeless person who's not doing any better stuffs on a beautiful new year but instead went and read this blog, yeah you, ask me "why you use the word WAS? Is 2008 somehow destroyed in its later months?" Ah, I wouldn't say destroyed but more like a sudden increase in ups-and-downs events lol. Lets imagine the earlier part of the year as a straight line in the middle, nothing particularly happy to remember, yet no sad events too. But the later part is like a sleeping S shape graph!(scientific term will be sinuous graph XD) There's plenty of unforgettable sweet memories, but at the same time plenty of emoing and so on and so forth lol.

Well, last year is last year. I know I've done my part, live through the last days of 2008 with my pals, and I'm content about it. So hopefully, the straight line life I'll be having again can eliminate my emoness again because emoing is tiring!(not my choice la! I'm always bad luck. Don't ask why XD)

Speaking of emoing, if you are reading this(who is this "you"? duh it's so obvious I'm talking about you lol), please don't so emo adi! Where's all your reasoning skills? When I was lonely, you always like to stuff me with logics and reasons or even religion materials to explain to me why I shouldn't feel so lonely, or at least why I shouldn't let it affect me so much. If you told me that, please tell yourself that. Otherwise I will shout "HAH! I was right to be lonely and you were insensitive that time and thought logics and etc will make a person not lonely XD". Okla I won't but don't emo.

And then there's you, mistakes always happen in life. But if you've done it, stop regretting what you've done. It's good to regret but it's no use if you're just gonna emo about it. What's done is done. So you must learn to accept the consequences of your action. Denying or hoping doesn't help at all.

And finally, its you. You're kinda my least worry because you just have so many places to look for comfort, security and advices. You're easily hurt and I know that but I wouldn't worry too much. However, just a word of advice, nobody will say "i'm not important" if they don't feel it in the first place. So you cannot only blame the dudes. If all of us are trying our best to change for you and her, I don't see why you shouldn't change for us no? Lol.

Ooops! Lol! I'm so sure they are gonna say "omg you don't know what you're saying cuz you don't even know what's happening". I loled if that happens. Crap, so much emoness in this post I should stop adi XD!

Ciaoz 2008...yo 2009! yumcha? :P