Once upon a time, there lived a poor lil girl...

it was 4am on a christmas morning...

As I was chatting online with JESSICA YONG HUI QUEEN a/p Mr. Yong....

3 ghost claimed to be the ghost of christmas past + present + future came to me and said...

Past: SOMEONE wanted boardgames...very ex le...somemore want 2 :O!
Present: ooo mamak gang alot of ppl la...maybe can share for SOMEONE's bday+farewell gift before she leaves to aussie?
Future: takeilu...

So here I am, posting this to see if the response is good... if yes then there will be a HAPPY CHILD.... notice the capitalized words... trippy huh?

LOL...FB SPM A prediction fail

LOL! Among all the things they predict, they predict my akaun to be A? HAHA! I hate accounts, I suck in accounts, and I don't take accounts....so how to get A? The only thing accurate in there is Sejarah mwahah! Oh and I know shits about chinese too XD! Prediction fail!

Video~!

http://www.facebook.com/#/profile.php?ref=profile&id=721887571

go view go view...its there...for now XD

Left 4 Dead 2 (simplified storyline by me XD)

- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (3:58 PM):
so here's the full storyline XD
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (3:58 PM):
first u start off at the top of a building...supposed to be an evac center but they came too late so the copters left them liao
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (3:58 PM):
they have to fight their way to the shopping mall
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (3:58 PM):
in the shopping mall, they fuel up a show car then drive away
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (3:59 PM):
drive until a circus, road is blocked by stacking vehicles
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (3:59 PM):
so they have to fight their way through the circus
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (3:59 PM):
and finally play a rocker concert with super loud music and fireworks to attract help of a passing by helicopter
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:00 PM):
then mana tau the copter pilot is infected so half way through their flight they force landed luu... at the swamp XD!
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:00 PM):
then fight their way though the swamp until they're saved by a boat
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:01 PM):
then the boat needed refill so they stopped by at a small town(hard rain campaign) and of cuz its raining like cats and dogs
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:01 PM):
they fight their way into a gas station(kononnya 2 miles away) and then back to the boat
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:01 PM):
finally the boat dropped them at some dunno wad city....
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:02 PM):
where the military is already bombing the city adi
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:02 PM):
but the survivors manage to reach a double decker bridge
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:02 PM):
and call up to the military
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:02 PM):
then woah
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:02 PM):
finale epic wei
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:02 PM):
run through hordes and tanks through the bridge
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:02 PM):
and into a military copter
- S e n g W a i - : ~ D i s c a r d e d E m o t i o n s ~ | LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTWWWWWW says (4:02 PM):
the end

Facbook fail XD

LOL! <--- best blog post starter ever...

Firstly, I would like to apologise for my lack of updates because I'm lazy and busy playing LEFT 4 DEAD 2 FTW FTW FTW XD! Niceness. But it's super hard now cuz the horde just keeps coming and the ai(s) just doesn't seem to be any smarter. The new specials are also quite gay >_>! Like the charger, he has quite a lot of life, and can be said a mini but fast tank lol. He charges at you at quite a high speed and make everyone nearby fly, except the targeted person of cuz. Then he will start choke slamming the targeted person, slowly damaging him, like how a hunter or smoker does. Besides charger got new zombie call jockey and spitter too. You guys can check it out when you play it lol.

Anyway! Today, as I was bored scrolling through my facebook home page, I came across 1 post by Lady Karis Wong, telling me about the language function of facebook that I never knew. It's located at the far left down of the home page. You click it and select English (pirate). LOL! Damn funny wei the translation XD!

Lol...notice that I was already in English upside down XD! So using the pirate version, I read my homepage and I came across this post



hahaha so funny XD roar! lady dot dot dot mating =o =o =o XDXD. Ah...that's all for today bye~

Christmas memories (translated)

Hayan noon yi ssayuh ga nn guh riyeh, jinan gyeo wool heyeo jeot dun nuh rl senggak he,
The streets are filled with snow as i think about you and last year's winter - the day you left me.
Hana do ji gm jjm, nugun ga ni gyeoteh ham gge ha get ji,
Someone's probably beside you right now,
Se hayan this snowy Christmas Day.
spending with you your snowy Christmas day.

Hayan noonl majmyeo, nuh wa ham gge guh-r-myeo, ham gge het dun jinan gyeo wool dashi dora ol soon opjiman,
Its impossible to bring our past here in the present: we were walking together... snow falling on us...
Nuh moo hengbok het seot dun, ji nan gyeo wool neh mamso ge ganjik ha go shi puh,
I wanna cherish the happiest winter I've ever experienced,
Ha~~yan~~Noon~~Yi~~ nogl dde gga ji
until the snow melts...

Hold my Christmas memory ganjik hago shipn g-got.
Hold my Christmas memory, i really wanna cherish that.
Yi gyeo wool eh ojik g-mam hayan ne mam eh ganjik hal gge Christmas Day,
I'll spend this winter by remembering our past and cherish it - the Christmas day,
nuh manl gan jik hal gge Christmas Day Young won hee gan jik hal gge Christmas Day.
I'll cherish YOU this Christmas day... forever i will cherish that Christmas Day.

Superheating of water(do check out supercooling too :D)

Superheating of water

Cause
For boiling to occur, the vapor pressure must exceed the ambient pressure plus a small amount of pressure induced by surface tensionWater is said to "boil" when bubbles of water vapor grow without bound, bursting at the surface. For a vapor bubble to expand, the temperature must be high enough that the vapor pressure exceeds the ambient pressure – the atmospheric pressure, primarily. Below that temperature, a water vapor bubble will shrink and vanish.

Superheating is an exception to this simple rule: a liquid is sometimes observed not to boil even though its vapor pressure does exceed the ambient pressure. The cause is an additional force, the surface tension, which suppresses the growth of bubbles.

Surface tension makes the bubble act a bit like a rubber balloon (more precisely, one that is under-inflated so that the rubber is still elastic). The pressure inside is raised slightly by the "skin" attempting to contract. For the bubble to expand — to boil — the temperature must be raised slightly above the boiling point to generate enough vapor pressure.

What makes superheating so explosive is that a larger bubble is easier to inflate than a small one, just as when blowing up a balloon, the hardest part is getting it started. It turns out the excess pressure due to surface tension is inversely proportional to the diameter of the bubble. This means if the largest bubbles in a container are only a few microns in diameter, overcoming the surface tension may require exceeding the boiling point by several degrees Celsius. Once a bubble does begin to grow, the pressure due to the surface tension reduces, so it expands explosively. In practice, most containers have scratches or other imperfections which trap pockets of air that provide starting bubbles. But a container of liquid with only microscopic bubbles can superheat dramatically.


Occurrence in the kitchen
Superheating can occur when a person heats an undisturbed cup of water in a microwave oven. When the container is removed, the water still appears to be below the boiling point. However, once the water is disturbed, some of it violently flashes to steam, spraying boiling water out of the container.[3] The boiling can be triggered by jostling the cup, inserting a stirring device, or adding a substance like instant coffee or sugar. The chances of superheating are greater with smooth containers, because scratches or chips can house small pockets of air, which serve as nucleation points. Chances of superheating can increase with repeated heating and cooling cycles of an undisturbed container, like when a forgotten coffee cup is re-heated without being removed from a microwave oven. This is due to heating cycles progressively de-gassing the liquid. There are ways to prevent superheating in a microwave oven, such as putting a popsicle stick or plastic spoon in the glass, or using a scratched container.


Myth
There is a common belief that superheating can occur only in pure substances. This is untrue, as superheating has been observed in coffee and other impure liquids. Impurities do prevent superheating if they introduce nucleation sites -- rough areas where gas is trapped. For example, sand will tend to suppress superheating in water. Dissolved gas can also provide nucleation sites when it comes out of solution and forms bubbles. But an impurity such as salt or sugar, dissolved in water to form a homogeneous solution, will not prevent superheating.


Source:
1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superheating
2. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1_OXM4mr_i0&feature=related

Wah

Dunno wat song to put for my blog adi :(!

Howl!

Yeah roar too much today i howl lo XD!
anyway...omg spa is KAPAK-PEN-LAUT-ve(axe-pen-sea-ve XD)
QOTD: SPA IS EXPENSIVE~!~!

Dear blog readers

Yes you! Well, I think I only have 1 reader or none at all LOLS! Anyway, yeah I'm currently brainstorming of where to get cheap yet good relaxing spa for my female friends for their birthday! If you know anyone who knows it, tell meh! :D

Thanks of many is u from me!

Holiday~!

1 week holiday yay!
So many assignments and homework boo!
No moneh DOUBLE BOO!
Got friends yay!
Friends no holiday boo!
ta kei lu TRIPLE YAY!

Cloning = useless??

Today, while doing nothing in my library, I overheard my "neighbours" talking about Dolly, the world's first cloned sheep. They were apparently researching on cloning and somehow they got to the topic of why Dolly died so fast after cloning. One of their team member suggested that cloning cells from the parent cell would mean the cloned cells are as old and worn out like the parents' cells. This means that even though the clone may look like a baby(if you manage to make the clone look like one), the baby would have had the same life span as his/her parent, aka they will still die at the same time(like if u clone me when im 10 years old, and i die at 20, my clone will live to be 10 years old only). I heard it and you know, it does sound plausible. If it is true, then its so sad :(. We cannot clone back some old geniuses like Einstein and wait for him to grow old normally so that the new Einstein clone can continue his research and this can continue until we have all sorts of cool stuffs! Oh well, I guess some things are just not meant to be.

So, do you want to be clones IF your baby self is a total brand new organism with new cells?

QOTD : If you question everything, you will surely learn something

I CAN SNAP!

whee! today after so long of randomly trying to practice snapping my fingers, i finally can snap at a decent decibal! XD! Previousl, I can't snap at all. Now this is a weird thing because snapping comes naturally by practicing snapping even though there is no sound at first. I wonder why? I hope the doctors and biologists can explain this to me. Nevertheless, I CAN SNAP! WHEEE!

QOTD: Practice is the only way to make things work ? XD

Why?

Why hold on, when you know its impossible,
why mix in, when you know you're immiscible,
why stand tall, when you know you're invisible,
why fight on, when you know its impenetrable?

What all those means? For me to know, for you to find out.

QOTD: Sometimes its harder to let go than to hold on

Ho Sien Ah!

Lols! so much work to do, yet so much procrastination aura surrounding me! omg! haha! NEXT MONTH IS OF THE COMINGS !!! MEANS MORE MONNEH!!! And u know wat that means!?!

1) MAMAK UNTIL ME BEBOLA MATA MENJADI CECAIR!~!~!
2) Belanja back my fat kar zhe as she belanjaed me alot during outings where i was poor XD!
3) Eat sushi zanmai/sushi tei/sake sushi (from most wanted to least wanted) with my pals or family
4) Why is everything in this list all food? XD!
5) Save up for the friggin expensive event which I don't even celebrate if it wasn't for them aka christmas aka anti CNY(cuz cny u gain money, this one rapes 3 years of CNY money u gained LOLS)
6) Really really wanna revisit that korean BBQ house at ss2 as the soup has touched the bottom of my stomach LOLS! The food there is awesome! Very pricy though sighs :(! Maybe we should order 2 chickens and then just keep eating rice rice and SOUP XD!
7) Go movie with Jianny maybe?? And alex! That fool better not be grounded or i will GROUND HIM!(u know...ground...like put extra wires on ur electrical appliance...yeah...stuff him into the ground or something lols)
8) omg i reach 8 adi! means "fatt" means prosperity means more monneh!!!
9) I'm clearly just wasting lines to reach 10 le lolable!
10) Waste my friends time by misleading them to reading my list of things to do even though it ended at 6(since 4 is rubbish lols) XD! OCTOBER FOOL! XD

Ok thx for wasting your time!~!
Oooo btw I just realised even kennysia says kthxbai! Ala not sepesial adi :(

*breathe*

k the anger resided... i've learnt my lesson... next time, i'm gonna just takei and chat until they come, only i start preparing...

But i guess its unfair to blame them too, especially chan, since it is my fault for not squeezing the details out of him. That is all I can say.

WTH!

WHY TELL ME SOMEONE IS COMING FOR ME AT 9.30, MADE ME ENDED MY GAME EARLIER TO WAIT FOR HIM, WHICH I DUN MIND, BUT THEN MADE ME WAITED A FREAKING ONE AND A HALF HOUR DOING NOTHING AND NOBODY INFORMED ME SHITS! DAMN FREAKING PISSED OFF. WHAT THE HELL MAN... WASTED SO MUCH OF MY TIME! IF YOU GUYS ARE VERY FREE THEN CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU ALL BUT DON'T FREAKING WASTE MY TIME. PERIOD...

fucking pissed off!

OMG PICTURE!!!!!111ONE11!!!!

haha! Initially I wanted to put up my first ever human picture in my blog! But sadly, no nice picture to put so I never put lo...anyway, you guys can still enjoy my random QOTD lols!

QOTD : A man is only a man when his woman thinks he is a man XD

Broke + Sleepy

No money
No sleep
No fun!

QOTD : A white lie can do more good then harm, but if you plan to make that lie permanent to a person you intend to keep close to you for a long time, prepare to let that person go

Chaos Theory

Recently I've watched a very old movie called "Chaos" which explained the Chaos theory. You can find online for what is the Chaos theory but here's the simplest definition I've found:

"The theory of non-linear functions, such that small differences in the input of the function can result in large and unpredictable differences in the output."

If you still don't understand, here's a analogical situation for you to compare with.

Abu was a pilot for a conventional Boeing 747. Just like everyday, he has the responsibility to transport hundreds of passenger from location A to location B. One day, for some reason he has a slight migraine. He thought to himself, "It'll probably be over after a quick nap. After all, I need my leaves to go on a holiday with my family." And so, he went to nap and prayed for his migraine to go away. When he woke up, it was still there, but being more selfish than professional, he decided to go on and fly anyway. His co-pilot, Abau is usually a very pre-cautious person. He prioritises his health each time before a flight, because he knew his health could affect his performance, which thousands of lives rely on. However, on the same day, it was his colleagues birthday. They went for sushi. Sushi is healthy food, so of course Abau did not push such an offer. Abu however did not join them for sushi because he was worried as he heard rumours about food poisoning at that particular outlet, although none was confirmed.

So during flight, Abau's stomach suddenly felt funny, and he immediately ran for the plane's washroom to do his business. During that time, Abu's head was in so much pain he couldn't concentrate at all on flying. He led the plane to a colliding altitude where another plane was suppose to use that path, and hence, 2 plane-ful of people were sacrificed on that sorrow-filled day. If Abu were to take his sick leave, and have a replacement pilot take over his place, or if Abau had feared the rumours about the food poisoning, and if that particular altitude wasn't in use by another airplane during that same instance, the collision wouldn't have happened. All the random series of events, although totally unrelated to each other at first, is suddenly all inter-linked to a final result(the collision) and hence the Chaos theory is born.

I find the Chaos theory very interesting. Its like at first these little pieces of puzzles looks totally random and feels negligible, suddenly becomes clear that they are indeed needed pieces of puzzle to form the entire picture. Haha. Who knows, me typing this blog led to a policeman spending time reading this, which led to a thief successfully infiltrated a politician's home, which led to the politician dying, which led to the failure of a peace treaty that was suppose to take place between that politician and another politician from a different party, which led to the opposing party feeling insulted, which led to riot, which led to my death as I was caught in the middle of the riot. Lol.... Its all Chaos theory baby!

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QOTD : There will always be someone out there who is richer, smarter, stronger, taller, and in many ways better than you, so just go for the guy/girl you truly love, because if you try, you might fail, but if you don't try, you already failed - interpreted from Frank Hwang XD

QOTD

a lol a day keeps the lolable hey hey!

QOTD

Every story has its other side. Reconsider before you pick a side

QOTD

When you avoid something, you're merely delaying or prolonging its effects on you

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On the side note, its amazing how friends can stay friends after the trial of time itself. I believe friendships lasts longer than a diamond(which if you pay attention in your chemistry class, will try to go back to its more stable state which is carbon). The 6 pax, which the name randomly blabbered out by me and someone else which i forgot who as we suddenly recalled chee chung's 6 pax and there is 6 of us, was able to last until today, a total of almost 3 years? Sadly my poor memory disables me to remember the exact day this pack of friends form. Maybe we should set 6th of every june as 6 pax day or something? Lol...

Besides that, my samad friends whom I thought will be gone after form 5, is still here! Mamak sessions going on almost weekly, sometimes even more, with occasional "adventure sepesial", we have been going strong for 1.5 years now. The Mamak Gang is not just a bunch of friends going mamak for fun and laughter, its a social society comparable to facebook itself. Special thanks to Alwin(founder i guess) and Jia Yun(current OP) whom have shown much efforts in organising mamak sessions and also the frequent transportation providers, Reuben, Jia Yun, the late Weng Wai, new entry Chan Wai and temporary volunteer Yung Khang which has returned to Australia, for making everything possible. Without the generosity of everyone above, it couldn't have been possible. Also thanks to those rare attendants/transporters like Tom, Lin Yi, Alia and Keng Yew. Not to forget the normal participants like Vincent, Jessica, Alwin and myself!

Sadly, for my Taylor's ring of friends, I've only been keeping in touch frequently with Jian Wai and Alex. The main reason I would say is because of my other friends living far as hell. I still remember when I first entered uni, Brian was my first friend then Hong Yi, then Aaron and then the whole class. LOL! Taylor's was fun la. I kinda miss the carefree lifestyle of Taylor's and Samad. Now Monash is an ASS T_T...

K thats all bye :P

QOTD(quote of the day)

It's one thing if you are willing to change for the one you love, it's another thing to try to change the one you love

Sam beng wan sui sam yok yi

Lols! To all those who can speak cantonese or mandarin, and watches alot of TVB dramas, they would understand my title XD! Haha! Translated, it means the sickness arisen from the heart can only be cured by the heart itself XD! Meaning, if you have emotional discomfort, the only way to soothe the pain is by overcoming your problems or the emotions itself. Easier said than done right? Absolutely true! Besides learning, controlling emotions is also a life-long process for each and everyone of us. If you're good at controlling your emotions, it's good. Sadly, the majority of us doesn't have that ability and hence the young people these days are entering a realm of gloominess and sorrows. Christians believe in the 7 deadly sins, which are "Lust", "Gluttony", "Greed", "Sloth", "Wrath", "Envy", and "Pride". To be honest, I think everyone has these 7 deadly sins in us, and no matter how hard we try to improve ourselves by distancing ourselves from these sins, we just couldn't fully remove them from our life. If you think about it, most of the time we suffer negative emotions based on these 7 sins. For example, Girl A feels super angry at her bf as her bf is talking with his ex. That scenario is based on the envy sin. I'm sure without further examples, one can relate their negative emotions to at least one of the above sins.

Of course, not all the time we will feel negative emotions due to these sins. There can be many other factors too. One of the most obvious example will be guilt. Guilt is a very powerful emotion that makes every human humane. It is what's that keeping us on the right track if we have done something morally wrong. It is also something that will tell us to do something, or not do something, sometimes even before the thing happened. However, as good as guilt sounds, it may also sometimes just be poor pain in the ass. Like lets say if I broke a vase. I know my parents had forgiven me, and I know they truly mean it when they forgive me, yet I'm feeling unnecessary guilt, guilt that will only make me feel bad for the rest of the day without any beneficial traits at all. I know, when we feel guilty after doing something, we would naturally prevent ourselves from doing it again. But how often does that work, seriously? I can tell guilt doesn't really help when the temptation to do your "mistake" again is too strong. So after blabbering so much, I just want to say, sometimes we SHOULD just think positive and let the feelings pass us by. Because sometimes what you're feeling may just be an unnecessary feeling, and other times feeling like that doesn't benefit anybody in any ways. So stay positive instead. At least when you are happy, others will be happy too, and that IS beneficial to everybody.

Before I end, just a short note to my friend. Learn to say no, please don't give yourself excuses such as inexperienceness, natural biological responses and things like that. I know you can be logical and analytical, use it. Always control your feelings. Don't do something you know you won't feel nice about after doing it. After all, you have the power to make the choice, and every choice you make is irreversibly important to everyone.

Oh and if anyone wondered what does my title has anything to do with this post, it doesnt. Cuz I decided not to post wat i initially wanted to hahaha! nitez...it will be long before my next update

SPM hard? Pre-U gila babi tough? Wait til u enter uni!

roar... to people out there who thinks your life now is crazy, you know, handling 10-12 topics for SPM, or even the demanding life of A-levels, SAM, ICPU, CIMP, Ausmat, and so on, wow you'd be surprised that uni can be much tougher than that! Not only the syllabus is becoming madly hard, the deadlines and amount of assignments given is also hardly mad! So many deadlines wei just yesterday night I slept at 4AM to rush my report, and guess what? The next day, more more assignments and homework FOR THE WIN! XD! ahh... people say uni life is enjoy, i don't find it enjoyable at all. I miss my holiday that I never had.

Silence is deafening

If I ask you a question now, would you prefer silence or lots of noise, what will your answer be? Well, I never had the choice. Today ever since I woke up at 9am until now, it has been nothing but silence to me. Family, all out and doing their thing, friends same too. I smsed 1 or 2 fellas, no replies, so I gave up. At times like this, I really do hate silence. It makes me feel like I'm suddenly all alone. Loneliness is not a nice feeling. Of course, if you have a whole bunch of friends and family that hangs around you alot, making the environment you're in consistently noisy, that doesn't mean you won't be lonely either. Because among that huge group of society you're living in, you feel as if you're just standing there, being lost and lonely. Like a drop of oil in a bucket of water, it just doesn't mix. Some say this empty void in your heart that's causing this feeling could only be filled with religious means(if you're Christian, only God's love can fill it and etc.). I don't know about it, so it's up to you to evaluate that point. As for me, I think those gaps can be easily filled if people only show a little bit more of their care and love for others.

I know, I know, best of friends don't need to tell each other they care for each other because it's on a "you're suppose to know that already" basis. But wouldn't everyone like to hear it or feel it once in awhile? Like a couple wedded for many decades, they eventually stop showing love and care in obvious ways, and instead opt for the same basis as I described for best friends. Now it's not that hard to show it once in awhile, is it?

Of course, some do show it subtly, just that the recipient of this loving process couldn't catch the minute showcase of affection. Basically if this happens, all efforts are actually wasted since the recipient didn't even get it. So yes, everyone who is reading this, if you are the recipient, keep your senses more sensitive, and to the subtle lovers, maybe show a little bit more if it doesn't hurt too much.

So am I really lonely? Well if you want a physical answer, I will definitely tell you 100% no. I have an ample amount of friends and family members who show their care to me in many different ways. Hence, by right, I shouldn't feel lonely at all because all I think I'm lacking, I actually have! But that is only if I think using 100% logic. However, as flawed as we are human, I have emotions too. Sometimes, there's can exist a huge difference between knowing something and feeling something. For example, Girl A knows Boy A loves her with all his heart, and will be the most loyal boyfriend any existing female species can ever find. Yet, somehow, when an ex of Boy A suddenly approaches him and they got closer(as in, from total ignorance to somewhat good friends), Girl A will still feel insecure. So yeah, that scenario is real, and I'm sure you guys have more of your own scenarios of how feelings can differ from logical thinking.

Yeah, I'm a lonely person. Though I'm not always like this. There are times some people show me immense amount of care, those moments, I stop feeling lonely. But those moments, as good as they are, are short-lived, and most of the time only leaves me in more pain and loneliness after it stops. Sometimes, I do wish that I could forget about all my past, then my senses will not be blurred anymore by the sufferings from the past. But lets face it, that will never happen, so I'm just trying my best to be optimistic everyday, to enjoy the most out of everyday. This leads to a small amount of mood swing, most of the time I'm ok, and sometimes I'll be like this, lonely and sad.

If you recalled, I mentioned before about my friend whom just broke up with her bf. I think it's a both-party's-fault situation since she mentioned if only she is a better gf, and also how could her bf be so heartless and stuff. Honestly, I cannot judge because I don't know what type of gf she is, but as a friend, she is one of the best ones you can get. I think she deserve better. Secretly I hope the will never patch back up, because based on experience, they are so going to fight and break up again, leaving my friend here broken and sad once more. Don't you just hate it when you see people you care suffer, yet there's really nothing much you could do to help them? For her, what she needed to know, she knows. Now it's just the feeling part that's problematic. I truly believe time is the only thing that can mend a broken heart. So I just hope she'll be as happy as she can be until her heart is fixed.

I am selfish and I get jealous easily, yet this only applies to people I put priority below myself. When I care for someone, I can really go crazy lol. Luckily haven't scare of anyone yet! Maybe I'm just a troubled guy seeking for attention that he never has haha. I think so la. Well I blame the "accurate" horoscopes who say Cancers are easy to hurt and hard to recover type of people XD! See, blame the stars haha. I think I will never find true love, and as much as my emotional side would say "damn...sad", my logical side will tell me "it's for the better". Only I will understand why XD!

I wonder how does love from a couple feels like?

The objective of STPM is to pass people?

*Copied from a facebook note by Philbert*

How do you explain the fact that 87% of the students passed the exams
recently, when during your father's time only 10% would have passed?

Are students getting smarter?
Or are STPM questions getting easier?
Let me put things in their proper perspective.


During your grandfather's time, they would ask exam questions like:
"In what year did Parameswara founded the kingdom of Melaka ?"
The correct answer was "1402", and they found that only 10% of the
students managed to answer the question correctly.
This didn't go down too well with the authorities, because the
objective of the exams was to pass people.
I mean, what's the point of having exams if people fail?


So later, they found another way to ask the same question:

"Parameswara founded the kingdom of Melaka in the year:
(a) 2001
(b) 2004
(c) 1986
(d) 1975
(e) 1402
Tick the correct answer."


The results were better in that 20% of the students passed.
But it was still not good enough, so the authorities tried a different
tactic a few
years later.

"Parameswara founded the kingdom of Melaka in the year 1402. True
or false?"

Well, half of the students guessed "True" and the other half guessed "False".

Fully 50% passed.


The results were getting pretty acceptable by now but still not good enough.
Most other countries would be satisfied with a 50% passing rate, but not us.
We are a better country, because we are a boleh country.
The authorities then cracked their heads and then came out with this one:

Read the following sentence carefully.

"Parameswara, the cousin of Proton-Iswara, founded the kingdom of Melaka
in the year 1402.
Underline the name of the person who founded Melaka."

60% underlined "Parameswara",
30% underlined "Proton-Iswara" and
10% underlined "1402"

Yeah!!!!....60% managed to pass!
So krever!



But for some reason, the authorities were still not contented.
So last year, they came out with this gem:


"One day in the year 1402, Parameswara founded the kingdom of Melaka .
Then he went home to have dinner.
What did he eat?"
13% (smart students) handed in blank answers,
57% wrote "Maggi Mee",
10% wrote " Kentucky Fried Chicken" and
20% wrote "Nasi Lemak".

The correct answer was anything concerning "Food" of course!



After the marking was over, it was found that 87% of the students had passed.
87%!!!!!............now that's pretty impressive!

So it's true.


So now the authorities are very happy that the students are indeed
getting smarter?

Well done Boleh-land!



Perhaps, this is why we have a host of students with an impressive
string of 'As' who can hardly construct a decent sentence!

Neow mind, our super-duper gomen can find a job for us one.

Duh……

Today's schedule
9am - 10am : Lecture on Engineering Dynamics
10am - 12pm : Tutorial on Maths for Engineering
12pm - 1pm : Lecture on Maths for Engineering
1pm - 2pm : Break
2pm - 3pm : Lecture on Engineering Dynamics
3pm - 5pm : Break
5pm - 6pm : Lecture on Engineering Materials

Yeah...my crazy Tuesday schedule really killing me. Thank god this week no tutorial so I can relax abit more. I know the breaks in between seems to make things look less tough, but those break are really useless to me because I can't sleep during those break. My habit I guess. So what I can do is go online during the breaks, but I got nothing to do online either because I usually use it to takei or chat only, which neither can be done in the school's computers. So that leaves me to just rotting during my break. Anyhow, with the breaks aside, I have to wake up as early as 6am to prepare and take THREE public buses to Monash. Today I reach the first bus stop at 6.30am and I reach Monash main gate at around 8.40am. Yes. It was very slow indeed. Hopefully this is the worst possible timing as I will be required to take public buses every Tuesday and Thursday to uni, and possible some Thursdays to go back(if JY can't fetch). Still trying to adapt to this type of life. Hopefully it'll be a routine for me(no I don't mean I hope it happens forever to me but instead I will get used to it like as if I do it everyday). I really pray next sem's timetable is far lovelier than this sem's one because this one is really BLEH! Also I would like to thank my cousins and auntie for providing me transportation on other days, and thank you JY beforehand because I know I will find you and you will fetch me(he's cool on the outside, but warm on the inside XD). Only officially 2nd day in uni and I have quite an amount of tutorials to finish. Wow, the uni life doesn't waste time huh? Guess I'll sacrifice my social life from now til 6 months later, where I will hatch from my social shell for a few weeks and then crawl back inside for another round of bashing uni fun.

On the side note, I failed. Sorry. That's all. Rmb to vote lime or dime.

Lime or Dime?

Problem
In today's society, the value of money is depreciating, yet money itself is becoming more valuable. Contradicting but true. One day, someone asked me, "hey seng wai, if you were to choose between a lime or a dime, which one would you choose?" To be honest, I cannot choose either one back then, I told him to give me some time to think over it. So what are the winning factors of lime and dime that could possibly make me choose one of them? Let's compare!



Comparison
Value
A dime is worth 10 cents. But a lime can worth up to FIFTY CENTS!!!! I remember ordering 'Teh O' Limau Ais' for a whopping, unforgiving price of RM 1.70 at Williams, but my friend who've ordered "Teh O' Ais' cost him only RM1.20! OMG! Just 1 lime can cost up to 50 cents! Clearly lime is worth much more than dime here. 1 point for lime!

Usefulness
Let's face it, 1 dime can't even get you sweets these days. Maybe at certain Mamak Restaurants you can still buy 2 Hacks sweets for a dime, but most stalls I go to sells 3 Hacks sweets for 2 dimes. Of course, we can be creative. A dime can be used to draw tiny circles, so no super mini compasses are needed for a nice, round small circle of radius 9mm. We can even use it to dig our nose, dig our teeth(if floss is too thin for ur huge teeth gap), shave, tickle someone, throw at a friend, throw at a enemy, throw at yourself, throw into a wishing well(i doubt ur wish will come true), and many more. Lime on the other hand can also do much especially in the food industry, making certain food and drinks nicer. It is also acidic so you can use it to cure Wasp sting! Hallelujah~! However since we're only using 1 dime, it's only fair that we only use 1 lime, so you better hope that's a baby wasp stinging you. I would give this point a draw since they are both good in their own ways.

Style
Oh my, dimes can be so beautifully decorated with sceneries of symbolic buildings according to different country. It also comes in different shapes and sizes like for a Malaysia dime, it's round and shiny(mostly). Limes are just round with occasional brown spots. Dime wins!

Popularity
When it comes to popularity, both lime and dime are internationally famous. There may be chunks of people here and there who don't know what's a lime or a dime or both but the amount is insignificant compared to the global population. So I declare this point a draw!



Verdict
So after listing out the comparison between these 2 items, I have come to a straight forward, down-to-earth conclusion, which is there is no conclusion! Yes I have wasted you a hefty amount of 2-3 minutes reading all these just to realise I didn't make a decision LOL! Now now, before you attack me the next time you see me, think about this. What will you choose? A lime, or a dime? It's entirely up to you.

Tired

I remember the toll taken on me by public transportation. I came home and immediately lie dead on the floor, right after setting the alarm on my phone to 6.30. When it rang, I felt like dying because I was so tired, I'm awoken abruptly from my deep slumber. I cannot continue my sleep no matter how tempting it is. Lazed around for another 10 min, and off to bathing and choosing clothing for me. They came and picked me up. I was moody that time so I didn't really talked much, though small conversations were made among us. Chelle thought that I already know where we are dining at since the name is mentioned many times. True, the numerous repetition was a dead give away, but I was too distracted to catch those clues that they indirectly gave away anyway. So we just had our buffet dinner at Citadel(if I didn't recall wrongly). It was for my birthday which was 1 day before that day. So I tried my best to enjoy the dinner. It was a typical dinner, you know, laughs and good food, satisfied stomach. Then all of us moved to Chelle's house for a little horror movie. I must admit there were parts that scared me, and those thrilling moments I did look away. But being far less afraid of the show than Edwyn is, I get to see a few "surprise" scenes which he conveniently missed. Darn. Further more, I have nobody to hug, hold tightly, or hide behind of if I'm too scared. Thank goodness it wasn't too much. Oh ya, the horror film we watched was "Coming Soon". Not recommended because I've seen far more scarier movies. Story line is also kind of dumb, in the sense that it's too unreal, illogical. After movie, went mamak then home. As I reach home, I wasn't really too tired. Felt happy and sad at the same time, so I decided to go online to try to ease up on the emotions there. Slept around 4am.

Today, rot at home for half the day because my eldest brother was using the computer. Lately I'm being quite negative due to negative occurrences happening around me. I can't help but to feel loneliness and a feeling of losing things. It isn't my day at all. As usual, Mamak Gang "rolled out" tonight, but we get a break from the regular routine. No takei tonight but instead went adventure to KL. It was a very brief adventure. I spent most of my time dozing off slightly and disturbing Vincent. Vincent(who haven't pass driving) an Alwin drove Reuben's kancil for a small round outside Jessica's house. It was a random moment I guess. Just got to know Jessica is going to leave in 5 months time and although she claims to stay there for 3 years, I'm pretty sure she'll come back to Malaysia during her long break. As much as I hate to admit it, I think I'll miss her slightly too. She did ask me "will you miss me?" but I didn't give her a definite answer. So here's one. Oh and of course today my friend kind of open up a little bit, feeling less depressed and beginning to accept things. I'm just very happy for her. I hope everyone around me will be happy all the time, even if it means I have to be the only one sorrowing. I do mind, but if we look at the bigger picture, it's definitely worth it.

When will I find true happiness? One day, happiness will come solely by itself without the companionship of other negative feelings. I do hope that day do come.

Thoughts

Plucked from a friend's blog :)

Why do I believe, that miracles come true for the people I pray for,
But doubt prayers for my own.

Because you believe others deserve better but you yourself don't, but in reality you deserve nothing but the very best. You just don't see it yet.



Why do I care so much,
When it hurts in the end.
Why do I worry about you,
When you don't even appreciate me.
Why do I wish you're happy,
When I hide all my pain behind a mask.
Why do I hurt so much,
When there's no point in grieving.

You LOVED him, and he walked away. What else do you expect to feel? Give yourself some time, and I can assure you your broken heart will eventually be mended. Meanwhile, do find any way possible to keep yourself happy, because you have to live whether you're happy or sad, so why not happy? Don't give up, you have my full support :)



Why? I keep asking myself.
But I know I would never get answers.
Not until I believe God can make miracles in my life.
And not only in other's.

Sometimes the answers are not that important. Sometimes, accepting it is the best thing to do. After all, everything in life has many points of views. I can do a good act like giving a poor man some money, but if you want to see it negatively, you can say I'm being a jerk, insulting the poor man with my filthy money. Optimism and believe are the key to a happy, contented life :D



And I wonder,
Why some friends,
Never seem to give up on me,
Always there to pick me up,
Even when i refuse to listen.

Because true friends NEVER leave their friends down on the ground and not pick them up. Yes, they do love you. Try your best to ignore them, they won't give up ;)

haih

Sometimes the feeling is unbearable...
Contain it anyway...
Your heart can take more than you think it can

The Veronicas - When It All Falls Apart

I dedicate this song to my friend who just broke up...

Lyrics:

I'm having the day from hell,
It was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space,
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And not to mention (the tears I shed)
But I should have kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
And not to mention (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby
Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime
Will I be mending?
another one ending once again

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Everything is F'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
Falls apart

Gotta pick myself out cause things are mended

My Last Week of Holidays

Haihs...Die lo...1 week left! Probably just gonna waste it resting away haha!
I wonder what's coming up for me to handle in the uni life? I hope I can cope up with it XD!
Short update today. Ciaoz XD!

Swollen finger!

Helped dad today with the laundry.... Normally, washing machines makes life easier, but the water supply was so slow today I pee stronger than the currents entering the machine. So, being a very filial son, I decided to help my dad with the water carrying! The first 4 buckets was easy, but after that, my fingers start to sore. My fat fingers are not so good with heavy things because it tends to get sore easily, like that feeling u get from carrying a plastic bag of heavy things, your hand isn't tired, but the fingers feels like its been vigorously rubbed with sandpaper. Yeah! Haha! After 10+ buckets finally done! Hoorah! Now it's time to relax :D.

Whee

Modulated waves!

*Warning, alot of science stuff.Read first line first. Skip if you're not interested to find out*

Ever wondered what does "FM" and "AM" means at the back of radio stations, like Hitz.fm? FM stands for frequency modulation and AM stands for amplitude modulation. But before I go on, what is modulation? Modulation is the process of varying one waveform in relation to another waveform. Through modulation, a low-frequency information signal is conveyed by a high-frequency sinusoidal carrier wave(needed because the original information signal will suffer from too much damping and interference to reach a far distance). In telecommunications, frequency modulation (FM) conveys information over a carrier wave by varying its frequency. Amplitude modulation (AM) does the same except this time it's the amplitude of the carrier that is varied while its frequency remains constant.

For radio stations, both AM and FM are used. "But why it's always FM that we usually listen to, and not AM?" you ask? Well, for once, AM is not very suitable due to multiple reasons. AM radio signals can be severely disrupted in large urban centres by metal structures, tall buildings and sources of radio frequency interference (RFI) and electrical noise, such as electrical motors, fluorescent lights, or lightning. As a result, AM radio in many countries has lost its dominance as a music broadcasting service, and in many cities is now relegated to news, sports, religious and talk radio stations. Some musical genres – particularly country, oldies, nostalgia and ethnic/world music – survive on AM, especially in areas where FM frequencies are in short supply or in thinly populated or mountainous areas where FM coverage is poor.

On the other hand, FM is much more favoured by local radio stations. As the name implies, wide band FM (W-FM) requires a wider signal bandwidth than amplitude modulation by an equivalent modulating signal, but this also makes the signal more robust against noise and interference. Frequency modulation is also more robust against simple signal amplitude fading phenomena. As a result, FM was chosen as the modulation standard for high frequency, high fidelity radio transmission: hence the term "FM radio". A high-efficiency radio-frequency switching amplifier can be used to transmit FM signals (and other constant-amplitude signals). For a given signal strength (measured at the receiver antenna), switching amplifiers use less battery power and typically cost less than a linear amplifier. This gives FM another advantage over other modulation schemes that require linear amplifiers, such as AM

Then why don't all stations convert to FM? There are certain limitations to FM as well. One of it's main reason is that it's very expensive to make and maintain FM modulators. This problem worsens as the coverage area of FM waves is considerably shorter than AM waves, meaning many stations are needed to cover all the areas that probably 1 AM station is enough. You'll also probably realise sometimes the signals received by your radio is not clear, or produce "fuzzy" noise. This is due to the fact that strong FM signals can bleed over into neighboring frequencies making the frequencies unusable with the transmitter. Combined with the relatively low power output of FM transmitters, FM can sometimes be unsuitable for use in some large urban areas because of the number of other radio signals.

Now you know more about the meaning behind FM and AM. Yes you, the one reading this. Hope that doesn't disrupt your taste for radio music. Now if we can only make them stop replaying the same song for 10 times in an hour.

Sources: Wikipedia! But dun worry, it's all correct facts. I have my own notes but just lazy to take haha! Trust me. Trust A-Levels.

Hot N Cold

Dunno why I'm feeling hot AND cold at the same time...its like my internals are heating up yet my skin is freezing! Lool! Perhaps I'm falling sick? Oh my! I hope this is not a sign of fever. If not, then i might be vulnerable to the attack of H1N1 virus! Haha! Nvm I don't feel feverish so should still be ok :D!

Woooish! Who knew that going out everyday could be so demanding on the body and on the pocket! Here I wanna thank Reu, Jian, Chan and recently Yung for providing me the much necessary transport for me to socialise with everyone! Sorry for the petrol consumption! I'll try to stuff in some "belanjaing" in my budget lols.

Oh no! My holiday vapourising faster than the hair on vincent's leg during a slurp game. How la liddat! I hope I can enter nerding mode for these 4 years so that I will get some scholarship or something! If can't also nothing to say la but of course we as sons and daughters should always try to reduce the stress of our parents! SCHOLARSHIP FTW~!

That's all folks

Weirdly funny

click for bigger pic if can't see ><

Keane...Long time no listen! The memories and the meanings bore(past tense of bear, apparently) in each and every songs, unforgettable, yet forgotten for some time(lol contradiction!). Today again my eyes opened a little wider(maybe 1mm?). I dunno why, I viewed a certain someone's blog today, and suddenly I see this very happy, carefree image. I scroll down and up, all over the blog, its all happy happy happy. It seems like this girl dunno how to emo! Haha! This carefree happy image really reminded me of my past, the carefree happy me. Perhaps I've been blinded for so much lately, I forgot the most basic things in life that I'm living for. Happiness, is it really that hard to find? The way I think, perhaps it has been in the wrong position for far too long. Changing the way I think changes the way I feel. I want to be as happy as that person in that blog, I mean again, since I was that happy too. This also led me to realising that sometimes the tiniest things people do can affect me too. I absolutely believe this is due to my ability to over-think and over-exaggerate things. Haha! That's both my strength and my weakness, depends on how I use it. It's funny how a human brain works. When everything seems perfect to you, it's as if you just stop learning, and perhaps even start deteriorating in terms of personality and even emotionally. Now that I can see again(no I wasn't literally blind, though my eyesight IS getting worse haha...too much takei), I can see so many things I've involuntarily chosen to neglect. It's not suddenly I have an increase of caring friends, nor that suddenly I feel free-er. All these "sudden" changes were merely because of what I do. The lost, somehow made me a better person. But is it worth it? Is it worth those happiness? Now and then, flashbacks of happy times will pop out. These vivid images reminded me of the fun times we had. Somehow, I can't recall the sad times. I really do miss them. I just couldn't say it. Because I am only a man, a man with fears. I fear I'm not strong enough to change into a better person. With this possible failure comes possible fights, which leads to more pain not only for me but for them too. This is the only and sole reason I didn't want to patch things up anymore. Earlier, I'd ask myself, why didn't they try to persuade me? If I'm as important as stated, they'd go to infinite extents to keep me there. But perhaps, I was too stubborn then. Everything I have thought, I'm not even sure if it's what I believe in anymore. What's right, what's wrong, the thin line that divides these 2 has become incredibly blurred. They are still my friends? I don't know. I really don't.

But, no matter what comes after today, tomorrow is another day. There's too much to live for, and life's too short to be wasted by emoing and all those(line courtesy of my "mummy" XD). Love, a very powerful yet often misunderstood word. In fact, I'm not even sure if half the couples out there are really feeling love at all. For those single bachelors out there, you're actually under the influence of love without even realising it! Love from family and friends, this unconditional love is far stronger than the love from your boyfriend or girlfriend. Think of it this way, you don't give much to your family, yet they just seem to love giving you everything you need for a complete life. This unconditional love, you can't get it from anywhere else. No not even from your so called perfect boyfriend(or girlfriend, lets just assume boyfriend only la lazy retype), . Yet it's funny how some people, when they have a boyfriend they start spending less time with family and their friends(even best friends!). Is it really worth it? This boyfriend of yours, we're not even sure if it will last! He doesn't really treat you any better than how your family and friends treat you. Why suddenly he deserve far more attention, has a far higher priority level than what WAS most important to you? Love is blind? No, I disbelieve that. I think you're just temporarily blinded by all this sudden attention you're getting from someone new. I guess it's just one of the many flaws of human. Greed and lust for more until negligence happens.

Ah. Now to be happy. Positive thoughts always? Haha! Seeing those happy pics in that blog again! Wow just can't believe the happiness displayed there. I'm actually even slightly envious too haha. Well my new uni life is starting soon, too soon I'd say. But it does have a benefit, if I failed to make myself as happy and carefree, I'd be too busy to care anyway! Haha! So cool! Oh another funny thing I realised is that I have more happy-go-lucky friends than emo friends! It's so cool. By friends of course I'm referring to those I still keep in touch with only la cuz the others that I don't how would I know what's their emotions all lol. Oh and this is my 100th post! Hooray! After almost 3 years, I finally reached 100. Fooh...Touching moment. Hahaha! My 100th post will have no title, to remind me that this is the end for the old, and a the start of a new beginning. Changes, you'd hate em but you gotta live with em. Those happy memories will always be instilled in the deepest part of my memory, and now I shall be off on my quest to seek happiness, it's not really that hard. You just have to have the right mindset ;)! Until the next time....

Oh, and to Sharmaine Wong Kar Mun, happy 19th birthday.

Sweet candies rot your teeth!

Random topic lol. Wow no matter how ridiculous I try to pose in my pic ppl still call me cute >_>! That is a bad thing you know! Guy's should be manly, handsome, cool, weird, stupid, disgusting or wtv EXCEPT cute! Nooo! Roar! Ah don't care la loool. Omg I just realised today is 20th of June adi! Which means I only have roughly 3 weeks of holidays left. Sobs! This is an even shorter break than my after SPM break! Life is all studies sighs! Anyhow, I just realise people you are close to can also betray you. Well, maybe I gotta start to not trust people that much already. Being stabbed in the back is painful ouch! My spine gone. Lol! Well, I've decided to ignore this person for good as this person has already voided my trust. Hmmm.... But perhaps this is better too in certain ways. Oh well.

On the other hand, wow I didn't realise there were so many people out there who cares about me lol! Even fatty kyo who always try to be mean and evil and heartless couldn't hide his true self which is the good kyo XD! And not to mention LYE, RK, JL, CW and of course the mamak gang! Now I know how he felt last time. I'm sorry for doing that. I now know I'm wrong. But I know you have already forgiven me. Thanks! Now I believe karma more than anything man. What you do to others will surely come back to you! haha! Hopefully all the good deeds I did during A-Levels exam will bring me back perfect results! PRAY PRAY!

Though I may seem heartless to you and you, I actually still care alot, but I must do it to release all attachment from you and you. This has been lingering too long, if you and you wouldn't change for me, I don't see any point of me changing anymore. I've changed so much, grown much wiser and mature too, but I just couldn't take it anymore. I'm happier this way I would say. If we meet in the streets in the future, maybe a simple "hello" would be appropriate. But perhaps, that's all?

Terminator Salivation

OOO! It's a good show man! You should watch it! Got super young and still buffed arnold schwarzenegger for like a good 10 seconds man! Now that's terminator! Hahaha! Yeah and all the action and fakeness, good ol terminator man! And who can forget about the coolness of the names of their actors? Common and Moon Bloodgood. Woah! That's what I call a name! Hahhaha!!! Imagine how perasan she will be.

Dude : Woah...Look at that beautiful Moon....
Moon Bloodgood : THX!
Dude : *vomits*

The lolness, or what kyo would say, lulness of the world. Hmmm... I'm feeling bored at home again. Roar! Going out more often is a should and hence asking me to go is a must! K that's all. Like chan would say, kthxbai

Study ah!

Wow. I wake up this morning and I think to myself "Hmmm....is there something to be done?" Lol! I guess all these studying mania has left me scarred in the brains. For some reasons I feel like I have something to study even though the exams is over. Stupid stupid me!

Went out for the last time today with my college mates. I kinda felt sad, because suddenly everything is leaving me, or I leave them, depending on how you see it. The thought that I MIGHT not see them anymore, wow.... feels like that day again.

Anyhow, today I got to know something new. Wow. Everyday's a day for learning huh? STUDY AH!!!!

My reply from Ministry of Education wahaha

Greetings.

Dear valued customer, Mr./Ms.Voon Seng Wai

Your reference number :- XXXXX

Thank you for your e-mail regarding Compulsory Pass in English for SPM.

We are pleased to inform you that the suggestion/feedback will be taken under full consideration and evaluation by a designated committee on its feasibility for implementation.

If you need further information, please do not hesitate to call us at 03-77237070 and inform us with your reference number which is XXXXX.

Thank you.

Yours truly,
"SEDIA BANTU"

WAN AZIZIE BIN WAN ZAHARY
Customer Service Executive
Customer Service Department
Ministry Of Education

Dai yai yai yai yai yai yai

Woots! Got all the cert verifying done! Now next monday I'll have to head to Monash University itself and get myself some slender entrance application form and some slim scholarship form then it's all sexy time~! As for these few days, OUTING AH!

P.S. : CC u owe me RM7 and EC owes me 37! pay pay pay pay !!!

Lar Lar Lar ~ !

Hmmm woke up early today lols. Guess I'm still slightly surprised on some funny fact I just got to know last night. It's good news of course. I like that news. It's like The Star newspaper, without the paper! Yeah it's that good...

Ah... Somehow I still can't let go lol. Useless useless me~ ~ ~. Oh well....time to study! EXAM AH! hahaha ooops exam over liao! But uni starting so SOON! NEW EXAMS COMING! NEW HARDER EXAMS! OMG! FURTHER MATHS??!?!?!?!?

*died*

Holiday? Don't really understand that giberish you just mentioned

If application goes well, I may begin my orientation week as soon as 13th July and officially class starts at 20th July. Man this is so frustrating in a way because my holidays have barely started and it will end in half a blink of an eye. Well, I guess it's good in a way because I can finally embark in a new adventure, a new beginning. Taylor's, my classmate are all the best! They are as best as my Sri Damai and Abdul Samad pals! Guess Malaysians aren't that uncourteous after all! University life... I wonder how will it be like? 1 things for sure is that now I'm gonna be in the same university as my cousins. Will it be great as I can get some general help from them? Or will it be the other way if anything bad happens to me and I want it to be personal but obviously can't because they will be there? Hmmm... Oh well. New beginning, new life. There are old things I do miss alot, and that 1 day I wish never came, but what's done is done so guess we'll all have to move on, even me. TIME TO GET UP FATTY! HAHAHA! Owh delicious I love forecasts and I hope Taylor's forecasts are super accurate because they gave me a nice forecast :D! Ah...HOPES! Kla that's all for today.... ASK ME OUT MORE NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I REJECT CUZ I RUNNING OUT OF HOLZ!!! HAHA

Did you know - Smoking

-Smoking improves human information processing?
-Higher nicotine cigarettes produce greater improvements [in information processing] than low-nicotine cigarettes?
-Nicotine can reverse the detrimental effects of scopolamine on performance?
-Smoking effects are accompanied by increases in EEG arousal and decreases in the latency of the late positive component of the evoked potential?
-Smoking improves motor performance?
-Smokers in general are thinner than nonsmokers, even when they ingest more calories?
-Smokers have less plaque, gingival inflammation and tooth mobility than nonsmokers?
-Smokers have lower incidence of postoperative deep vein thrombosis than nonsmokers?
-Hypertension (high blood pressure) is less common among smokers?
-RBCs [red blood cells] from cigarette smokers contain more glutathione and catalase and protect lung endothelial cells against O2 [dioxide] metabolites better than RBCs from nonsmokers?
-Smoking protects against Parkinson's disease?

These and more at http://www.forces.org/evidence/didyou/benefits.htm

Im finally out of~~

I'm almost finally finally out of words~!~!~!
hahah! Tomorrow last paper! Even though nothing much can be studied for it, I can't help but to feel rather unprepared for it. I didn't do well at all in my physics and chemistry paper 4, so this chemistry paper 5 is obviously hyperly important if I were to hope for A. Haih. Physics ah! I dunno if can still get A or not. I really hope I can. Haih. But then again, it's my own fault for not preparing earlier. I think I have to change my lifestyle once I enter university. Gonna force myself to study at least 1-2 hours a day so that I can understand and remember my basics.

On the other note, holiday coming lu! Still wondering if I am capable enough for Mechanical Engineering? I mean, I can't even handle Pre-U level Further Maths, how can I handle the extreme maths of a Mechanical Engineer? But, seeing that I have no talents whatsoever, I'm gonna venture into engineering anyway and hope for the best. Monash University mou??? XD! OOO! They have the new July intake, which is like great for me cuz its so conveniently timed for me! I hope they won't ask for my forecast results though cuz it stinks XD!

Whee

Finally the 2 hardest paper is over! I'm in love once again with Teh O Limau Ais! XD

OMG?

FOURSOMESONGS babeh!
Guaranteed to created ear orgasms :P

P.S. Try copy the "underscore" or "_" between four and songs and see what come out haha

Vote, and listen

Nice James Blunt song! Here are the lyrics

Trouble is her only friend, and he's back again
Makes her body older than it really is
And she says it's high time she went away
No one's got much to say in this town
Trouble is the only way is down, down down

As strong as you were, tender you go
I'm watching you breathing, for the last time
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet
I know what it means and I'll carry you home
I'll carry you home

If she had wings she would fly away
And another day God will give her some
Trouble is the only way is down, down down

As strong as you were, tender you go
I'm watching you breathing, for the last time
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet
I know what it means and I'll carry you home
I'll carry you home

And they were all born pretty in New York City tonight
And someone's little girl was taken from the world tonight
Under the stars and stripes

As strong as you were, tender you go
I'm watching you breathing, for the last time
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet
I know what it means and I'll carry you home

As strong as you were, tender you go
I'm watching you breathing, for the last time
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet
I know what it means and I'll carry you home
I'll carry you home

Wow...

Exams are coming very, very soon. I'm beginning to get worried. I think I cannot stop my feelings.

Hmmm

I wanted to blog, but I couldn't find the words to put out my emotions.

Mysteries of the Highlands....

Hello...For most of you who didn't know, I was in genting with Maine, Chelle and unfortunately Chee Chung(believe me...he is gay lol), from 8/4/09 - 10/4/09. Overall it was a very enjoyable trip as I can feel myself and my friends were carefree and stressless, as in they have left all their loads down there before they go to genting. I have a phobia, phasmophobia to be exact. Naturally, my normally great imagination is now working against me as I stay in the hotel. Though, something about the tiny bathroom and toilet and the pack of friends that made me feel quite secure. Small room means less place to "pop out" from. And friends, well I know when I am really scared I can count on them to come and teman me haha! Of course, for fun, I chat with them while i was bathing. Lol! Bored la! Yeah... Of course, like Yin and Yang, the trip also has its downs, which I will not display here to protect everyone I love lol.

So entering the title of this post, there were certain mysteries that happened during our stay there which some cannot be solved, and some just to make the list longer lol. If you guys know the answer to these mysteries, please comment!

MYSTERY 1
Like any family, we brought snacks and cup noodles up to Genting. One of the snacks we bought was Chipsmore. Since there are girls, obviously that was one of the first thing to be opened. So we couldn't finish it, we put it aside on a table then we went out and do fun stuffs. When we arrive back to the room, I stepped on cookie crumbs on the carpet right outside our room door. And when we went inside, there were also some cookie crumbs between the place where we place the Chipsmore, and the door. I asked them who ate cookies while going out, and all of them denied. I myself also only remember all of us eating on the bed. I don't know about you, but that is kind of freaky.

MYSTERY 2
Michelle thought saw something drop down in a shop called S&M Shopping Center. But when she look properly, she didn't see anything. Of course, this may just be her imagining things, or even a bug diving in front of her eyes then disappeared. We'll never be sure.

MYSTERY 3
During our first night's sleep, Sharmaine's phone rang. I heard a loud ringtone which woke me up, but Maine's phone is always silent. And she and Michelle said they only heard vibrations. It might be me half dreaming because I was awoken abruptly, but once again, we'll never be sure.

MYSTERY 4
After bathing, the shower hose, which is the type that is fixed on the wall, higher than our head, shooting downwards to our head, will have a few sudden gush of water even after closed tightly. We're talking gushes, like if u on the tap alot, then close really quickly, that type of gush, and not leaking tap type. Aaron says its normal, but for me and Michelle(who've experienced it too), we're very doubtful and a little spooked out.

Are you guys scared now? Be afraid....be VERY AFRAID!!!

Good Luck!

Dear sis...

For the next two days, you're going to experience extreme moodiness. But even you and I know that it's only caused by your expectations are quite high!

Remember my words... You could do well under normal circumstances but now the conditions are way beyond normal, so yes you could do it, just not now. Don't worry the real thing is on the actual one... So do yourself a favour and breathe. Lower expectations because you know it's not your fault.

And most of all, most of all, GOOD LUCK FOR TOMORROW AND THE DAY AFTER! Looking forward to you spending for me :D!

emo emo emo

emo emo emo ><

watch lol

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=721887571&ref=mf#/video/video.php?v=44682694596&subj=721887571&oid=27266654181

The truth is...

I'm studying very hard until didn't even go online for the whole of today wei! CRAZY!
Yeah and believe it cuz that's the TRUTH XD

p.s....trials is dead for me...but i hope that ignites my spirit to study better for finals

The I-am-not-studying-for-trials tag XD

Tag;People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs. Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

I've tagged,
Weng Wai
Karis
Chan Wai
Michelle Chan
Sharmaine Wong
Carmen Chen
Bob Marley
Jeniffer Aniston
Guru Pitka
Yie Ern

1.What have you been doing recently?
Studying for trials

2. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
Alot recently...couldn't afford a ring during exam XD

3. What happened at 10.00 am today?
I woke up

4. When did you last cry?
Quite long ago(7 pounds failed lol!)

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
Yes

6. What do you want in your life right now?
Banyak la

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Neither

8. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Breakfast! Although I've never tried before ><

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
a black 3/4s

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox says?
lol

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
only everyone I have XD

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nope

13. What was the last movie you caught?
7 pounds

14. What are you proud of?
Still having friends after many misunderstandings lol!

15. What does the oldest message in your inbox says?
up to you

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
bad day - daniel powter

17. Do you have any nicknames?
adala

18. What does your last received message say?
nope.on the way to sunwar.why?

21. Who gives you best advice?
hmm...dunno

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
I didn't use the phone last night

24. Is anyone bugging you right now?
Yes

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Weng Wai + Reuben ( a censored pic of reu in ww's blog made me loled )

26. Do you wear toe socks?
wth is toe socks....

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
my bro

28. Have you ever had your heart borken?
yup

29. Who annoys you the most in person?
miley cyrus in disaster movie XD

30. Do you have any crush on anyone?
david archuleta? XD

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
yes!

32. What is the colour of your room?
old yellow-smoked green lol

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
Depends...

34. Do you believe in the saying of: talk is cheap?
nah

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Keira Knightley and her 13 sisters....4 of them are twins...

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
wow...hard to remember so long ago adi

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
nah...

38. Do you have a life?
No baby = no life :P

39. Have you ever thought someone died when they really didnt die?
nope

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
what profile?

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
as far as I can remember, kar zhe lol

42. Last time you smiled?
now

43. Have you changed this year?
Yes..i would like to believe so

44. What are you listening right now?
fans

45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
Nope

46. Do you walk with your eyes opened or closed?
2 eyes on my face opened, 1 eye at my butt(si ngan) closed
(si ngan, where ngan is eye in canton means asshole XD)

47. Is there a quote you live by?
If you're tired of standing alone, sit down

48. Do you have someone you cannot have?
nah

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
nope

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
Dunno

51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?
Watching 7 pounds

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
Nope

53. What song best decribed your love life?
Don't have a love life by Miley Cyrus

54. Does the person knows that you like him/her?
Dunno

55. Who always make you laugh?
The fella who made me laugh alot

56. Do you speak other language other than english?
ngor m ji dou...guah tak tau la...mungkin tidak...

57. Favourite website(s)?
www.discardedemotions.blogspot.com

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
studying for physics last minutely

60. Who do you think you are like?
fatty

61. Who will you choose to die with?
myself enuf la

62. Where have you been today?
Some cemetary somewhere passed SS2 from my house lol

63. What game do you play often?
DotA, L4D, the adventures of Keira Knightley XD

64. Who are you missing right now?
The person I failed to hit

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
hmm...both...i love my friends

66. What are you doing right now?
Answering the 66th question

67. Which primary school are you from?
Sri Damai

68. Name 3 colours that you like.
Green, white, black

69. What emoticon you like to show?
XD

70. What is your life to you?
Biawak hidup XD

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Find something solutioning me lo

72. Who did you last chat on msn today?
Melinda Yong

73. Who do you admire most?
hahah

74. Which month are you born in?
July

75. How are you feeling right now?
Annoyed and bored

76. What's the time now?
4.24p.m.

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
Very feline I guess XD

78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
Techno green

79. Why are you doing this?
Because you are a retard...and I pity you

80. What do you do when you're moody?
I'll show alot of mood

81. At which age you wish to get married?
3450

82. Who is more important to you?
Family

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
L4D and DotA guah...dunno la...cincai la

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Mc Gyver

85. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after a rain?
Erm...it's kinda proved by science....I can even simulate a rainbow lol

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
*Censored*

87. What is your goal for this year?
I don't play football la XD

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Yes, but eternity must means until both of us die lol

89. What feeling do you love most?
Loved

90. Do you really think its global warming now?
Yes...because global warming has happened ver since Ice Age ended

91. What feeling do you hate most?
sad, disappointment

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
I try

93.Do you believe in God?
Not really

94. Who cares for you most?
My family

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My family and a group of true-friends

96. What will you bring when you fight?
The opponent's weaknesses

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
Banyak la

98. What would you feel if no one longer cares for you?
100X worst than now guah

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
I'd be happy cuz I have a girlfriend lol

100. How do you feel now?
sien lol

Holey words

I don't get it....
A hole is a hole...
So why does a little effort from a person nobody would trust
Can make you step deeper and deeper into the hole?
Can't you see....
It's just a hole?

39 reasons why Weng Wai sucks!

1. The person who tagged you
Wankster Wong Weng Wai

2. Your relationship with him/her is
Driver - Passenger LOL!
jkjk...friends lo

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her
tagger, nagger, begger, lagger, fatter

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
hmm......dunno la...all also memorable lol

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you
@##*@&#%@#%@&#% lol

6. If he/she become your lover you will
wake up from this nightmare

7. If he/she become your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be
dying

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will
have 1 more enemy

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be
dowan friend me anymore

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now
find a genie lamp and give him all 3 wishes cuz he needs it more than i do XD

11. Your overall impression of him/her is
9/10

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
hatred...and anything similiar ><

13. The characters you love of yourself are
nothing

14.On the contrary, the characters that you hate about yourself
everything :D

15. The most ideal person you want to be is
a person that always gets what he wants yet still has all the best values of a gentleman and a society-helping person

16. For people who care and love you, say something to them.
erm...i love u too i guess lol

17. Pass this test to 10 persons who you wished to know how they feel about you.
1. Sharmaine Wong
2. Wankster Wong Weng Wai(i wanna know the first 16 ma lol)
3. Michelle Chan
4. Karis Wong
5. Rachael Kat
6. Adam Sandler!
7. Carmen Chen
8. Alex Wong
9. Yie Ern!
10. Alfonso de Albuquerque

18. Who is no. 6
Famous actor! Best movie = click XD

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?
I'm not sure....LOL! jk female le

20. If no. 7 and no.10 together, is that a good thing?
Perfect couple wei! Mun Mun u want Melaka mou? XD

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
i dunno la...something about science lol

22. When is the last time u had a chat with no. 3?
dunno la...she suddenly dowan to reply...sengaja ignore me saja

23.What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
DEFINITELY TECHNO! lame guy

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
2 sises

25. Will you woo no. 3?
I dun mind...but I might die in the process due to some cheetah-speed-muscle-factory dude protecting her lol

26. How about no. 7?
hahahaha!!! Okla why not since I'm free LOL

27. Is no. 4 single?
lol! I would say no, but officially its yes...or maybe its no longer yes lol! i'll never know

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Feline fighter ~ Meow

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?
Sailing around the world....loves brown sugar...take over melaka lol

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
they don't know each other XD

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?
Utar

32. Talk something casually about no. 1
Needs sleep...consider changing course

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6?
Woohoo! LOL! Click rocks

34. Where does no. 9 live at?
I dunno...Nearby gua...

35. What colour does no.4 like?
if hasn't changed, purple..or violet...or something of that shade la

36. Are no. 5 and 1 best friends?
Of course! NOT! lol

37. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
DAMN SEXY WEI! PHEEWEET! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!

38. What is no. 6 doing now?
Having sex with hot hollywood chicks, filming new porno-comedy movie, more sex with maybe even bollywood chicks...lol!

39. Is Weng Wai a gay for making Seng do this tag? (Yes/Definitely)
Definitely