Keane...Long time no listen! The memories and the meanings bore(past tense of bear, apparently) in each and every songs, unforgettable, yet forgotten for some time(lol contradiction!). Today again my eyes opened a little wider(maybe 1mm?). I dunno why, I viewed a certain someone's blog today, and suddenly I see this very happy, carefree image. I scroll down and up, all over the blog, its all happy happy happy. It seems like this girl dunno how to emo! Haha! This carefree happy image really reminded me of my past, the carefree happy me. Perhaps I've been blinded for so much lately, I forgot the most basic things in life that I'm living for. Happiness, is it really that hard to find? The way I think, perhaps it has been in the wrong position for far too long. Changing the way I think changes the way I feel. I want to be as happy as that person in that blog, I mean again, since I was that happy too. This also led me to realising that sometimes the tiniest things people do can affect me too. I absolutely believe this is due to my ability to over-think and over-exaggerate things. Haha! That's both my strength and my weakness, depends on how I use it. It's funny how a human brain works. When everything seems perfect to you, it's as if you just stop learning, and perhaps even start deteriorating in terms of personality and even emotionally. Now that I can see again(no I wasn't literally blind, though my eyesight IS getting worse haha...too much takei), I can see so many things I've involuntarily chosen to neglect. It's not suddenly I have an increase of caring friends, nor that suddenly I feel free-er. All these "sudden" changes were merely because of what I do. The lost, somehow made me a better person. But is it worth it? Is it worth those happiness? Now and then, flashbacks of happy times will pop out. These vivid images reminded me of the fun times we had. Somehow, I can't recall the sad times. I really do miss them. I just couldn't say it. Because I am only a man, a man with fears. I fear I'm not strong enough to change into a better person. With this possible failure comes possible fights, which leads to more pain not only for me but for them too. This is the only and sole reason I didn't want to patch things up anymore. Earlier, I'd ask myself, why didn't they try to persuade me? If I'm as important as stated, they'd go to infinite extents to keep me there. But perhaps, I was too stubborn then. Everything I have thought, I'm not even sure if it's what I believe in anymore. What's right, what's wrong, the thin line that divides these 2 has become incredibly blurred. They are still my friends? I don't know. I really don't.

But, no matter what comes after today, tomorrow is another day. There's too much to live for, and life's too short to be wasted by emoing and all those(line courtesy of my "mummy" XD). Love, a very powerful yet often misunderstood word. In fact, I'm not even sure if half the couples out there are really feeling love at all. For those single bachelors out there, you're actually under the influence of love without even realising it! Love from family and friends, this unconditional love is far stronger than the love from your boyfriend or girlfriend. Think of it this way, you don't give much to your family, yet they just seem to love giving you everything you need for a complete life. This unconditional love, you can't get it from anywhere else. No not even from your so called perfect boyfriend(or girlfriend, lets just assume boyfriend only la lazy retype), . Yet it's funny how some people, when they have a boyfriend they start spending less time with family and their friends(even best friends!). Is it really worth it? This boyfriend of yours, we're not even sure if it will last! He doesn't really treat you any better than how your family and friends treat you. Why suddenly he deserve far more attention, has a far higher priority level than what WAS most important to you? Love is blind? No, I disbelieve that. I think you're just temporarily blinded by all this sudden attention you're getting from someone new. I guess it's just one of the many flaws of human. Greed and lust for more until negligence happens.

Ah. Now to be happy. Positive thoughts always? Haha! Seeing those happy pics in that blog again! Wow just can't believe the happiness displayed there. I'm actually even slightly envious too haha. Well my new uni life is starting soon, too soon I'd say. But it does have a benefit, if I failed to make myself as happy and carefree, I'd be too busy to care anyway! Haha! So cool! Oh another funny thing I realised is that I have more happy-go-lucky friends than emo friends! It's so cool. By friends of course I'm referring to those I still keep in touch with only la cuz the others that I don't how would I know what's their emotions all lol. Oh and this is my 100th post! Hooray! After almost 3 years, I finally reached 100. Fooh...Touching moment. Hahaha! My 100th post will have no title, to remind me that this is the end for the old, and a the start of a new beginning. Changes, you'd hate em but you gotta live with em. Those happy memories will always be instilled in the deepest part of my memory, and now I shall be off on my quest to seek happiness, it's not really that hard. You just have to have the right mindset ;)! Until the next time....

Oh, and to Sharmaine Wong Kar Mun, happy 19th birthday.

Sweet candies rot your teeth!

Random topic lol. Wow no matter how ridiculous I try to pose in my pic ppl still call me cute >_>! That is a bad thing you know! Guy's should be manly, handsome, cool, weird, stupid, disgusting or wtv EXCEPT cute! Nooo! Roar! Ah don't care la loool. Omg I just realised today is 20th of June adi! Which means I only have roughly 3 weeks of holidays left. Sobs! This is an even shorter break than my after SPM break! Life is all studies sighs! Anyhow, I just realise people you are close to can also betray you. Well, maybe I gotta start to not trust people that much already. Being stabbed in the back is painful ouch! My spine gone. Lol! Well, I've decided to ignore this person for good as this person has already voided my trust. Hmmm.... But perhaps this is better too in certain ways. Oh well.

On the other hand, wow I didn't realise there were so many people out there who cares about me lol! Even fatty kyo who always try to be mean and evil and heartless couldn't hide his true self which is the good kyo XD! And not to mention LYE, RK, JL, CW and of course the mamak gang! Now I know how he felt last time. I'm sorry for doing that. I now know I'm wrong. But I know you have already forgiven me. Thanks! Now I believe karma more than anything man. What you do to others will surely come back to you! haha! Hopefully all the good deeds I did during A-Levels exam will bring me back perfect results! PRAY PRAY!

Though I may seem heartless to you and you, I actually still care alot, but I must do it to release all attachment from you and you. This has been lingering too long, if you and you wouldn't change for me, I don't see any point of me changing anymore. I've changed so much, grown much wiser and mature too, but I just couldn't take it anymore. I'm happier this way I would say. If we meet in the streets in the future, maybe a simple "hello" would be appropriate. But perhaps, that's all?

Terminator Salivation

OOO! It's a good show man! You should watch it! Got super young and still buffed arnold schwarzenegger for like a good 10 seconds man! Now that's terminator! Hahaha! Yeah and all the action and fakeness, good ol terminator man! And who can forget about the coolness of the names of their actors? Common and Moon Bloodgood. Woah! That's what I call a name! Hahhaha!!! Imagine how perasan she will be.

Dude : Woah...Look at that beautiful Moon....
Moon Bloodgood : THX!
Dude : *vomits*

The lolness, or what kyo would say, lulness of the world. Hmmm... I'm feeling bored at home again. Roar! Going out more often is a should and hence asking me to go is a must! K that's all. Like chan would say, kthxbai

Study ah!

Wow. I wake up this morning and I think to myself "Hmmm....is there something to be done?" Lol! I guess all these studying mania has left me scarred in the brains. For some reasons I feel like I have something to study even though the exams is over. Stupid stupid me!

Went out for the last time today with my college mates. I kinda felt sad, because suddenly everything is leaving me, or I leave them, depending on how you see it. The thought that I MIGHT not see them anymore, wow.... feels like that day again.

Anyhow, today I got to know something new. Wow. Everyday's a day for learning huh? STUDY AH!!!!

My reply from Ministry of Education wahaha

Greetings.

Dear valued customer, Mr./Ms.Voon Seng Wai

Your reference number :- XXXXX

Thank you for your e-mail regarding Compulsory Pass in English for SPM.

We are pleased to inform you that the suggestion/feedback will be taken under full consideration and evaluation by a designated committee on its feasibility for implementation.

If you need further information, please do not hesitate to call us at 03-77237070 and inform us with your reference number which is XXXXX.

Thank you.

Yours truly,
"SEDIA BANTU"

WAN AZIZIE BIN WAN ZAHARY
Customer Service Executive
Customer Service Department
Ministry Of Education

Dai yai yai yai yai yai yai

Woots! Got all the cert verifying done! Now next monday I'll have to head to Monash University itself and get myself some slender entrance application form and some slim scholarship form then it's all sexy time~! As for these few days, OUTING AH!

P.S. : CC u owe me RM7 and EC owes me 37! pay pay pay pay !!!

Lar Lar Lar ~ !

Hmmm woke up early today lols. Guess I'm still slightly surprised on some funny fact I just got to know last night. It's good news of course. I like that news. It's like The Star newspaper, without the paper! Yeah it's that good...

Ah... Somehow I still can't let go lol. Useless useless me~ ~ ~. Oh well....time to study! EXAM AH! hahaha ooops exam over liao! But uni starting so SOON! NEW EXAMS COMING! NEW HARDER EXAMS! OMG! FURTHER MATHS??!?!?!?!?

*died*

Holiday? Don't really understand that giberish you just mentioned

If application goes well, I may begin my orientation week as soon as 13th July and officially class starts at 20th July. Man this is so frustrating in a way because my holidays have barely started and it will end in half a blink of an eye. Well, I guess it's good in a way because I can finally embark in a new adventure, a new beginning. Taylor's, my classmate are all the best! They are as best as my Sri Damai and Abdul Samad pals! Guess Malaysians aren't that uncourteous after all! University life... I wonder how will it be like? 1 things for sure is that now I'm gonna be in the same university as my cousins. Will it be great as I can get some general help from them? Or will it be the other way if anything bad happens to me and I want it to be personal but obviously can't because they will be there? Hmmm... Oh well. New beginning, new life. There are old things I do miss alot, and that 1 day I wish never came, but what's done is done so guess we'll all have to move on, even me. TIME TO GET UP FATTY! HAHAHA! Owh delicious I love forecasts and I hope Taylor's forecasts are super accurate because they gave me a nice forecast :D! Ah...HOPES! Kla that's all for today.... ASK ME OUT MORE NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I REJECT CUZ I RUNNING OUT OF HOLZ!!! HAHA

Did you know - Smoking

-Smoking improves human information processing?
-Higher nicotine cigarettes produce greater improvements [in information processing] than low-nicotine cigarettes?
-Nicotine can reverse the detrimental effects of scopolamine on performance?
-Smoking effects are accompanied by increases in EEG arousal and decreases in the latency of the late positive component of the evoked potential?
-Smoking improves motor performance?
-Smokers in general are thinner than nonsmokers, even when they ingest more calories?
-Smokers have less plaque, gingival inflammation and tooth mobility than nonsmokers?
-Smokers have lower incidence of postoperative deep vein thrombosis than nonsmokers?
-Hypertension (high blood pressure) is less common among smokers?
-RBCs [red blood cells] from cigarette smokers contain more glutathione and catalase and protect lung endothelial cells against O2 [dioxide] metabolites better than RBCs from nonsmokers?
-Smoking protects against Parkinson's disease?

These and more at http://www.forces.org/evidence/didyou/benefits.htm

Im finally out of~~

I'm almost finally finally out of words~!~!~!
hahah! Tomorrow last paper! Even though nothing much can be studied for it, I can't help but to feel rather unprepared for it. I didn't do well at all in my physics and chemistry paper 4, so this chemistry paper 5 is obviously hyperly important if I were to hope for A. Haih. Physics ah! I dunno if can still get A or not. I really hope I can. Haih. But then again, it's my own fault for not preparing earlier. I think I have to change my lifestyle once I enter university. Gonna force myself to study at least 1-2 hours a day so that I can understand and remember my basics.

On the other note, holiday coming lu! Still wondering if I am capable enough for Mechanical Engineering? I mean, I can't even handle Pre-U level Further Maths, how can I handle the extreme maths of a Mechanical Engineer? But, seeing that I have no talents whatsoever, I'm gonna venture into engineering anyway and hope for the best. Monash University mou??? XD! OOO! They have the new July intake, which is like great for me cuz its so conveniently timed for me! I hope they won't ask for my forecast results though cuz it stinks XD!

Whee

Finally the 2 hardest paper is over! I'm in love once again with Teh O Limau Ais! XD